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Thursday, July 16
OHH HELLO HUMANOIDS `!
Things had been so great lately . "GREAT" yeah great . So much so for being so great that I'm bringing myself into another hard situation . Or should I say it's just a fcuked up life I'm leading all this while .
Well, something's going on with Nur Syazyan as obviously and I'm so not getting any of what f*kaduck tryna say . I mean, this all came so suddenly, I don't even know where I'm standing right now .
First, my laptop, had been taken away by my Dad . THIS IS SOOOOO GREAT BABY .
-_- God ! And right now I'm at Anderson's taking opportunity when I still can and go online and check out the tagboard .
Second, this disaster . I'm so tired . Cried to sleep . Came to school grinning like one fcuking idiot telling myself this is gonna be alright, when another half of myself says that it's not gonna be .
How's that ?
Okay, currently feeling tired everyday . So so tired .
Third, I keep thinking about NUR SYAZYAN, what the hell actually happened to you ?
I don't know what else to think of already,
and making it worse,
My O-level Malay is coming up .
Oh wow wow wow . Including common tests and all . School is my another battle .
One long battle before I can move to my next stage of life .
This is all so frustrating .
I told myself to do well or I wont make it to end of year and maybe will spend my days after graduation working as a cashier let what my mum always says.
Mum: "You dont do well in you O's, no such thing as Poly and ITE ."
I kept quite .
Mum: " I want you to go to JC. Now I dont want to listen to you anymore . I've put you in this school because you wanted to but you didnt do well . "
I kept quite .
Of course she had said this in Malay but I guess it's easier for me to type out in Englay .
Kay now what, sit here and rot ?
Well one good thing is that I managed to collect a sum of money to buy myself a SIM card, and the h.fone, well I'll use my Mum's old h.fone when she's not around .
Thanks God, for giving me some light in this darkness I'm going through .
Kay gotta go, teacher's dismissing us in quite a short while soon .
Takecare, PS: Nur Syazyan, please do me a favour and take bloody good care of yourself . Please .
xoxo
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